So, we just watched Showman again. I needed the grounding. Yesterday was tough. Staying in bed all day, because of life. I know I can ask for help, I’m not above it. Sometimes, I hit, many times, I miss. Remember that hand of jokers? Yeah, it messes with ya. I also know I depend on people. It messes with their lives. Yeah, it messes with ya. So, I retreat into my own head.
When Ashley came last night, she was surprised I was in bed. I told her the story, and she said I should’ve called her. She’d already told me her boss at the old folks’ home wouldn’t let her leave when she got back from school, so I left it alone. She told me to call, if she can, she will, if she can’t…well. Both she and Joey told me the worse she can say is no, which I know.
As much as I hate to admit it, I am human, and I sometimes get inside my own head. I have to remember they’re only words.
Alright, it’s a quarter after 3, so good night, and be good to each other.